When it comes again

I have non stop nausea which I wonder what can help me to stop it.
And cheese crackers not in list.
It is very bad since I can’t control it.
Abang, baby and I need you.
I wish you are here right now.
Soothing my nausea and make me feel strong.

10th Week

Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed to have this little caliph in my uterus.
I pray everything will be smooth and easy for us.
Dear my little caliph,
Ibu loves you so much.
You are the reason for me to wake up early everyday,the reason i become stronger,and tougher everyday.
So, we are buddy here while Abi is far away from us but Abi always near in my heart.
Do you know my little caliph, every night Abi always talks to you, recite dua before sleep and surah Kursi for you.
Abi really loves you dear.
Abi works so hard to save the money so that we get enough everything for you when you born.
Ibu really hopes my little caliph grows well and healthy, perfectly.
Remember my dear, that you are the CHAMPION because you are the result of the only one sperm that successfully penetrate the ovum.
So you already be CHAMPION before you are born.
When you live in this world Ibu prays that you will never give up,never turn back, and never quit because YOU ARE A FIGHTER!!
Just look up and believe in your dreams.

Bring up the spirit

I had vomited all food that I ate during dinner. I ate quite a lot because im hungry and the food looks apetizing.
I cancelled my plan to go tuition and called my love via viber. But I ended up crying. I felt i am alone here. I dont know,i just felt my love doesnt understand how hard it is for me, pregnant without husband here. All into me.
I feel sick. I am tired. 😦
Should i gave up on my baby?

What pregnancy changes me

It already 7 weeks I pregnant my lovely t*** inside my tummy. Also today is already 3rd month anniversary between me and my love. Alhamdulillah I am happy and always happy being a wife, a partner to him.

Some parts of my life changes since I get pregnant. Here they are:
1- I barely drink plain water everyday. Before this, I can drink up to 9 liter per day. Now I need to push myself to drink more water otherwise I won’t drink it at all.
2- I hate oatmeal. Oatmeal is my daily breakfast until I get pregnant,my tummy seems cannot go with it anymore.
3- I’m craving for sweet sour mango. I have this since last week and until now I still dream of it. Even burst into tears when I think about it.
4- Always fatigue especially when I am at home. Just lying on bed. Pffft..not my style.
5- Lazy to clean up my room or ironing my clothes etc. Huwaaa..I am organize person but now I seems don’t care much about my appearance anymore. Tsskkk..

CBC and B-HCG tests

I went to Hospital el-Hekma this morning for blood test and hormone test. Walking alone to hospital without husband remind me about the decision we made together to have children before I graduated from medical school. And we even wish it is twin. Yes,we really want a twin. And it already in my vision board I graduated in Feb 2016 with my husband, the twin,my parents and my parents-in-law. I pray everyday my dream comes true.

So no matter what I choose this decision and ready to take the risks. I hope so. I knows this path is not easy and Allah choose only some people to face it. But one thing I keep in my mind,” when Allah brings it you,He will bring you thorough it.” Believe it and put trust only to Allah!!! I can do it.

Oh yeah,the lab result showed I have mild normocytic normochromic anemia and positive pregnancy. I had just buy folic acid and for the iron supplement I think I need ObyGyn consultantation first.